Dealing with Disappointment

An excerpt from my journal on March 11, 2020

“Tomorrow I was supposed to get on a plan to go to Portugal. Rationally/logically I know it makes the most sense to wait and go later in the year. Emotionally, well I don’t really want to deal with it, because I fear going into a rabbit hole or blowing things out of proportion. God give us wisdom. We need you. I need you. This sucks. There is no telling (what’s to come) Lord, but I want to trust you. I know and believe that you are good and you have everything under control. Help me to feel things but not to drown.

Another excerpt, this time from March 15, 2020

I realize I didn’t have to go to Portugal to do the following things:

  • Fall in love with Jesus again
  • Improve my Portuguese
  • Have great stories to tell of what Jesus is doing
  • Develop deeper relationships with my ministry partners
  • Remember why why working for Agape Portugal is important
  • Let God’s love shine brightly through me
  • Reconnect with friends/family in Portugal

In fact, I think it was even more important that I stay home, so I could be reminded that these things can happen no matter where I am, because God is the same God today in New Orleans on my couch as He was when I was in Portugal. He will be the same God tomorrow and every day for the rest of eternity.

“Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall hold me” Psalm 139:7-10

Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever. – Hebrews 13:8

While the next few weeks are nothing like I expected them to be, I plan to make the most out of this time. You can find me hiding out in my house, checking off things on a long awaited to do list, watching Netflix + TikTok and soaking up the sweet sounds of birds chirping and children playing from the balcony. Follow along on social media for more updates

Love always,
Amber Nicole