An excerpt from my journal on March 11, 2020
“Tomorrow I was supposed to get on a plan to go to Portugal. Rationally/logically I know it makes the most sense to wait and go later in the year. Emotionally, well I don’t really want to deal with it, because I fear going into a rabbit hole or blowing things out of proportion. God give us wisdom. We need you. I need you. This sucks. There is no telling (what’s to come) Lord, but I want to trust you. I know and believe that you are good and you have everything under control. Help me to feel things but not to drown.
Another excerpt, this time from March 15, 2020
I realize I didn’t have to go to Portugal to do the following things:
- Fall in love with Jesus again
- Improve my Portuguese
- Have great stories to tell of what Jesus is doing
- Develop deeper relationships with my ministry partners
- Remember why why working for Agape Portugal is important
- Let God’s love shine brightly through me
- Reconnect with friends/family in Portugal
In fact, I think it was even more important that I stay home, so I could be reminded that these things can happen no matter where I am, because God is the same God today in New Orleans on my couch as He was when I was in Portugal. He will be the same God tomorrow and every day for the rest of eternity.
“Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall hold me” – Psalm 139:7-10
Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today and forever. – Hebrews 13:8
While the next few weeks are nothing like I expected them to be, I plan to make the most out of this time. You can find me hiding out in my house, checking off things on a long awaited to do list, watching Netflix + TikTok and soaking up the sweet sounds of birds chirping and children playing from the balcony. Follow along on social media for more updates
Love always,
Amber Nicole
Just Going for God 