On the plane yesterday I discovered an old journal entry and today I want to share it with you.
May 29, 2014
Today marks the beginning of a new journey. A season of self discovery.Opening my bookbag to find what I thought was there (my laptop),not there anymore, leaves for a whole day of quality time with you, Lord. Today the search for who you are begins, or maybe, better yet, this is a search for who you say I am and how I fit into the miraculously divine plan you have for the world.
I don’t have to look very far to know who you are. I can see you all around me in creation – the sun setting and rising, birds chirping, a cool sea breeze.
I see you in people. After all, you did make us in your image. Together, we make up most of who you are, but even together we will still never be you.
And of course there is your Word. The sacred words you gave us 2000 years ago that are still applicable today. Your living, breathing Word teaches us something new every time we open it up. Sometimes it teaches us something old, but either way it brings us a little closer to where you are.
Father, my main purpose in life is to exist and live within your presence, allowing your Holy Spirit to fill me up, so much so that it overflows into the lives of those around me. You have called me to live a life of sacrifice but it really is no sacrifice at all compared to what Jesus gave for me. You have commanded me to surrender all to you, pick up my cross and to go make disciples in all nations. Your hope and desire for me is to live a life of unprecedented worship.
You command me to do everything for your glory and I long to live in response to the reconciliation that has come through the cross; where there is FREEDOM; not in bondage trying to please you. Let me walk in the balance of fearing you, and walking in the freedom that Christ has already paid for my sins with his death and resurrection.
Jesus I want to be at the center of your will at all times. As I discover more of who you are, I pray that you will reveal who I am in you.
It was incredible to be reminded of these truths as I transition into this new season of life in Europe. My prayer today is that no matter what we’re going through we will always come back to the basic truth of the Cross.